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I used the thesaurus for this one, kids.

I used to be fierce.

I was funny. Entertaining. Smart. People enjoyed being around me. People sought my company. Wanted to spend time with me. I was definitely all three dimensions. I pretty much did whatever I wanted. I may not have always been happy, or healthy, but gol darnnit I was independent. I was an individual.

I’m not going to lie to you. For the past 3 months, life has been The Suck. And I decided, several weeks ago, to just stop doing things. I haven’t cooked a meal in a long time. What little interest I had in housekeeping has long since fled. I have developed a close friendship with my high definition tv.

I flattened.

When I was single and alone, I could tell you everything. If I wanted to. Life gets more complicated and sometimes I chose respect for others and privacy. This is what I am doing now. So I apologize if you sometimes get the “what” without me giving you the “why.”

I am not good at writing from a place of pain. I don’t write poetry. I’m not especially elegiac. I write in paragraphs, not short burst of emo. It’s not my shtick. When I write comfortably, I write from a place of humor.

But I’ve lost mine. I’m working on getting it back. But I can’t promise some anger, frustration, sadness and other ick doesn’t seep out.

I’ll do my best.

Because I used to be fierce and I can be that way again.

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My perspective alone

I am married.

I am a married woman. I have a husband. In some way, this factors into everything I do and every decision I make because it should. We are partners.

There are aspects of my life that have nothing do with him. When I had a job, for instance. But even then he was with me. In my heart and mind. Ok, I never wrote a bug report or technical document with his opinion in mind. But like the ring on my finger, this aspect of my life is always there. Even when I am on my own, doing my own thing, expressing my own views.

And I’m proud of that.

And I respect it.

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Northern Voice 2008

Hey kids.

Long time no see.

I wanted to let you know what’s up, because I said I would be a couple of weeks, but I have decided to give myself a month. I have until next Wednesday before I insist I quit these moody shenanigans and get back to blogging. I haven’t purposely taken time off from the blog in over five years. And it’s given me a some time to think about what I want to do with it in the future. I want to upgrade my MovableType to 4.x version. And I’m beginning to plan a new design.

I am, in no way, planning to stop blogging. On the contrary.

Tomorrow I will attend the kick off party for a local blogging conference, Northern Voice. I’ve been looking forward to this for some weeks. An extremely kind local blogger I’ve traded comments and emails with, Airdrie, has volunteered to introduce me around. Should be a good times.

So I will see you next week, m’kay?

Love ya! Mean it!

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